Attitude

Our morning Bible reading has us going through Exodus. Lately, I feel like a grumbling Israelite. I feel like I can't trust. I feel discouraged and not very hopeful. I feel like God has abandoned me.
It's a good thing these are only feelings and not truth. God is faithful no matter how I feel. He is with me whether I can sense his presence or not. He is still working even though I can't see it.
Just like in the Psalms, I  need to say how I feel before I can see how wretched I am and how merciful God is. Then I can cry out, "Lord, help me!".
And He answers. He gives us just what we need. It might not be what we wanted, but He knows better than we what is necessary. Theron and his mom continue visits to see his dad, who is now in rehab again. The kids and I have been sick quite a bit, so have not gone as often as before. We are just getting over another bout of illness. Only God knows what is next and I guess this is another opportunity to trust Him.