Attitude

Our morning Bible reading has us going through Exodus. Lately, I feel like a grumbling Israelite. I feel like I can't trust. I feel discouraged and not very hopeful. I feel like God has abandoned me.
It's a good thing these are only feelings and not truth. God is faithful no matter how I feel. He is with me whether I can sense his presence or not. He is still working even though I can't see it.
Just like in the Psalms, I  need to say how I feel before I can see how wretched I am and how merciful God is. Then I can cry out, "Lord, help me!".
And He answers. He gives us just what we need. It might not be what we wanted, but He knows better than we what is necessary. Theron and his mom continue visits to see his dad, who is now in rehab again. The kids and I have been sick quite a bit, so have not gone as often as before. We are just getting over another bout of illness. Only God knows what is next and I guess this is another opportunity to trust Him.

On Hold

We have asked Bethany to put us on hold while we take care of Theron's parents. His mom has been living with us and we have been taking her for daily visits to see her husband. He was in a rehab facility in Snellville, but as of last Saturday he has been in Eastside Medical Center with pneumonia.
We had begun remodeling our downstairs to put in a bedroom. Originally it was for the grandparents, but we are not sure now. Things keep changing.
It has been a hard road watching Theron's dad improve and then have another setback. He had gotten to the point in rehab that he was getting up into his wheelchair on his own. We would have lunch with him once a week and the kids played a game of Skip-Bo with him one day. Now he is back in the hospital connected to wires and tubes and the kids can't see him.