The Question

I have often asked myself the question, "Would God ever ask me to adopt?", more in a wondering way than a direct way. Every time I saw people with adopted children, I asked myself this question. I felt drawn to them somehow.


Then one day, my husband asked me to think about something. "Pray about it", he had said. Prompted by the news of events in Haiti, he wanted me to consider what we might do to help kids like that. I knew he wasn't talking about giving money. He would not even need to ask me about that. I KNEW what he was talking about, but I ask him anyway, just for clarity. "Are you talking about adoption?" When that was confirmed, I went to praying. I was excited that God was leading my husband in this, but of course, he wanted me on board, too.


Now, I was asking God the question. I also began to analyze myself and wonder what it takes to be an adoptive parent. Do I have what it takes? I spent two weeks, I think, in dialogue with God over this.


Then the REAL QUESTION came. Do I trust God? Without him, I can do nothing. The truth is I don't have what it takes if I don't trust Him. He wants me to trust Him! He wants me to follow my husband's lead and venture into the unknown and live my life for Him and not waste it.


Once I told Theron I was on board, he was ready to move forward. He scheduled us for a Discover Adoption seminar that Bethany Christian Services was offering. We attended that on February 23, 2010, while the kids stayed with our friends, the Siyams.